"When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles." -Psalm 34:17
Anxiety is a funny thing. A thing that keeps you up at night, and, at times, makes it impossible to shed tears. As I lie awake at night I have time to contemplate how to live with this baggage of anxiety, fear, and uneasiness. Am I suppose to walk around sporting a smile when inside my heart is desperately breaking? The fear that this anxiety will become too much to bear has weighed heavy on my mind.
For hours I contemplated these questions... yet the only solution I can come to is to let go and give it to my Lord and Savior. The One who can calm the storm and bring heavenly peace to my heart and mind.
"My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken." -Psalm 62:1-2
However, I have discovered that this is not as easy to do and it sounds. I have willingly given this weighty burden over to God when it is too heavy to bear, but am oh so quick to pick it right back up again because I feel naked without it. "What will become of me if I do not worry and carry this burden?" I say to myself. It shadows and protects me, and big enough to run and hide behind and use as an excuse when things get rough.
"The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms." -Deuteronomy 33:27
But this barricade soon crumbles and my heart is overcome with swells of anxiety and apprehension once again. Like waves crashing upon a shore, wearing on me again and again. I am not strong enough to carry this burden, this anxiety, this disquiet fear. And once again I give it to God.
"My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." -Exodus 33:14
And what an awesome God we serve! He will pick us up when we are weak and carry us across the shore, shouldering the blows of the winds and waves that would have overtaken me. His love endures forever and He never abandons us, even when our trust in Him lags at a distance. He is the Healer of the brokenhearted, our Rescue and Redeemer.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid". -John 14:27
Sometimes, in the midst of these incessant storms of life, all we can do is step back and marvel at the beautiful disaster. To see our messiness of life mingling with the beautiful redemption that comes from Christ. To see that even in our despair, He walks alongside our brokenness and beckons us through His Word to come to Him.
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord you God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior." -Isaiah 43:1b-3a
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